Confused....

Days had been really unhappy for me...
i don know how to express or talk bout it either...
seriously im realli unhappy...
and i seriously do not like empty promises...
its makes me feel so betrayed...
so unimportant and so un-needed...

tat is why i do not simply give promises...
i do not want to hurt those who are around me...
ppl who i give my promise is those whom i cared for alot...
its like i wont simply promise things i would not do...
sometimes we humans just need ppl to appreciate and love...
someone who will care for us...
someone who will have the NEED for us...

IM JUST REALLI DOWN AND UNHAPPY........
its till like.. it will realli tear me apart if things continue to be this way...
im realli realli DOWN..... ya... ppl might say tat... come on ur a guy....
"don be a pussy"
i HAVE FEELINGS TOO..... i have my OWN EMOTIONS too...

and now.... i don even know wad can u give to me....
yeah.. things tat can be bought with money...
but thats not wad i really want.... in fact.. i do not want them....
im jjuz realli down as i went to drink wit didi....

ya.. groundnuts and beer....
might seems ahpek....
luckily didi managed to cheer me up.. thanks alot didi...
i do appreciate u as my little brother.....
and didi... don give up too k??
we go thru everything together and we can share things wit one another nex time as welll

ends here... i am getting realli emotional now....

I'd Give It All... I Would Give Everything But Won't Give Up...

i juz so stupid tat ill hold on to things tat i will never even get... i had even hold on to some who's been so far away for so many years which i had just managed to let go last year.... im juz stupid..

-KayLix-

Just Me......

i might not know how to love.........



i might not know how to show love.........



i might not know how to express...........



i might not know what expressing will be like.........
i do not know what this is all about.........
i do not know ANYTHING........

Motivational Quotes..

"You only live once, but if you do it right, once is enough."
- Mae West -

You and Me

long long long time ago... Christmas carolling.. ur still juz a fren of mine..


this night, magic and wonders did happened =D.. ill never forget bout it and how it happens...


first time i saw how an angel looks like.. ur my angel =D


the first picture i've taken so "romantically" in my entire life...

baby baby..

i don know wad else to blog about..
there's so much more to blog about..
so many pictures to post..
all im thinking now is just you and you..
altho its jus a short time, its filled with bitter-sweet memories..
thats the best taste you can get from a chocolate..

i miss you so much baby..
i cant stop looking at our photographs..
i had been sitting here for hours looking at those pics over and over again..
and reminding myself how all this miracles happened...
how this magic happened between you and me..

there's so many things that runs thru my mind..
i cant think of anything..
i just can see a picture of you..
i hope and pray that you have a happy day ahead..
you might be tired of your journey..
but i promise you here and now..
i'll lift you up when your tired and depressed..
i'll be the one who cares and loves you..
whenever you need me to..
even if you don need me to..
cause you simply already part of me..

i'll be your man..
and be your boy sometimes to keep u up..
whenever you're down..
hearing you calling me hubby softens my heart..
even if im angry..
itll still melt my heart..
no one in my life can ever do this..
only you.. only you..

ends here baby.. hope i can blog more.. but im thinking too much things now..
thats all...
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I LOVE YOU BABY JEAN..!!


and yes.. LIKE THE WAY YOU LOVE ME TOO.. <3

With Unending love,
YourBabyBoy

p/s : no matter what your wearing now,
You Look Wonderful Tonight =D

Life..

Time flies.....

time flies
time flies
time flies.............

its already almost 3 months since we've been together.. and it seems like its already 9 years..
spend almost 24hours a day together.. doing everything together... taking care of each other and keeping each other accompanied...

but now.. its already gone... i don even know when will be the next time we'll be seeing each other.. hugging each other or juz holding each other's hand...

been a very very unhappy week but i tried to fake out everything juz to prevent u from thinking more... first teardrop flowed down right after i dropped u at the station.. sorry tat i juz don wana show u.. i cant and i wont.. ill do my best to hold on to this 1 year and whatever happens, i wont regret a thing... because u've paint that rainbow in my life... thanks for being a part of me and i love u alot.... muakx

<3 kaylix