Let's Fall In Love Again

Let’s pretend baby
That you’ve just met me
And I’ve never seen you before
I’ll tell all my friends
That I think you’re starin’
And you say the same to yours

And oh, we’ll dance around it all night
And then I’ll follow you outside
And try to open up my mouth
And nothing comes out right

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

I’ll call you in three days
And I’ll ask your roommate if you’re home
You call me on Thursday
And we’ll hang out all day
Then fall asleep on the phone

And oh, I’ll hold your hand when we drive
And we’ll lose track of all the time
And we’ll tell everyone
That we ain’t never felt so alive

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again

We’ll fall disgustingly fast
And we’ll stop hangin’ out with friends
And they’ll be so offended

And I wanna fall in love with you again
I don’t have to try
It’s so easy
Who needs to pretend?
But because it’s so funny
Let’s just think about it, honey
Let’s just fall in love again
Let’s just fall in love again
So, let’s just fall in love again

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come to think of it,
again?
haha... quite funny tho...
who will it be??
i was like again...
and pls... not the one i don want pls..
hahahahahaha...
i want my nightmare...
i don wan.. "chubby" girls..
hahahahahahahah
im drunk....
i did not drink..
but im drunk...
LOL...
off to sleep..
exam tomorrow...!

-KayLix @ Again-

bloggg

i wanted to blog but there is not much time for me to blog..
been out day to night.....
and i cant sleep late...
parent's here nagging...
so i have to roll on the bed till im asleep....
hmmmmm
neutral days for me ... =/

-KayLix @ Wont Give Up-

mayb

thinkin of..
what will it help if i stay so emo..
totally ntg?
builds up negative stuff oni..
what will it help? if i stay like this...
ill oni hurt myself..

mayb i should live happily..
thats what u wanted me to..
live as i should be..
with or without you..
why wana whine over stuffs that is the past?
i myself din appreciate it..
why wana whine bout it?
it my own mistakes that i have to face
the consequences..
no me..
not so much prob..

even we din made it up as a couple now..
i believe what u really want is for me to live happily..
thats what i wish for you as well..
perhaps this break up is healthy and good for us as well..
if ur not happi when ur with me,
why would i still wan u to be with me?
aint i being too selfish?

perhaps.. i shall wait..
no i mean not wait..
"sun kei ji yin" till the day ur here working in KL mayb?
let the flow go as it should be..
study hard for this less den 1 year...
mayb start to work after my Dip..
den see what position God puts us into..

if there's a chance to, i'll fall for you over and over again..
and again...
this feeling will never change =)

-KayLix @ Turning Over The New Leaf-

I'll Wait..

ill wait for you..
i read your blog..
the same post..
over and over again.
and everytime as i was reading..
tears flooded my eyes..
and i don know why..
but i did not cry..
i don know if u still read mine..

mayb no?
mayb yes?
will u still read mine?
supposingly, if ntg bad happened,
2 more days and its our half a year anni..
too bad..
things went wrong..
and we did not even went past the 5th month..
time flies huh?
we've broke up bout 2months?
to be exact.. its the 7th week?
i think.. lost count..

yes.. im too faithful in love..
and everytime i fall out of love..
its just the worst feeling i could ever get..
u said in ur blog.. every couples hate that sentence
"lets be friends"
i myself.. hated it very much too..
it cant he helped but it makes me feel so lost..

was reading ur old post when we was together..
and.. u said..
when we've together, everything feels so right..
etc etc. etc...
and those words u said there..
again.. flood my eyes with tears..
i cant believe that...
now..
your no more a part in my life..

when you wants something so much..
then its up to God to give u or not..
whether im worth it or not..

other than blog..
i don know where can i put my feelings on..
same old grandma stories will get everyone tired
of me and my stories..
so i chose..
not to tell anyone..
keep it all by myself..
and come home...
blog about it..

everywhere i go..
here in KL..
seriously.. everywhere..
leaves a memory of you..
the place i go from morning til night..
till i return back to my own house..
have a memory of you..
and i remembered things that
i din know that i would remember..
random things..
so random that ive nvr tot ill remember them..

today, 26th august..
i wanted to send u a msg..
but i held back.. i typed it.. but i did not send it..
i kept in back in my draft..

"i once told myself that it'll be the last time i'm attaching with you years ago. but years later, i came to a point where im in love again. with you. i don't know how to express how much i love u, how much i realli care, and how much u meant to me. i dont know how.. and perhaps ive shown it the wrong way. But if im allowed to, ill fall for you over and over again."

here.. my super emo post.. i don know why but i feel so..
living without you.. is not like the world's ending..
living without you.. is like ive lost a part of myself..
feeling disabled..
yes.. i do have frens... but the feelings given..
is not the same..

and here.. its 2 months ago..
my eyes will still flood with tears..
even this very moment..
just wana say..
i love u so much..
and i wan u to be a part of me as well..
i love u so so much...
yes.. this may sound fake...
but i just do..
i just love you..

perhaps, u've erased me off..
forgotten bout me..
i don know..
i wana get you back..
so so much...

- I Wanted To.. But I Have No Bravery To -

ive got so much more to blog about..
i don know..
it seems like ive got a whole train of feelings..
so so so much to be told..
so so so much to be expressed..
so so so much that is hidden..
i should stop here...

- KayLix @ Till Love Meet Me Again -

Im Freaking Out

im freaking freaking freakin scared now...
WTF WTF WTF...
i had my dinner as usual...
den i went back home.....
and i went to bath...
as i was bathing....
i suddenly wana puke..
den.. i tahan lar..
den beh tahan d.. i vomitted...
and guess what.. there's lots blood stains on it..
so i try to think more... did i eat anything reddish today?
NO! its all soup based stuff...
and i tried to check those stuff i vomitted..
again.. its blood..
and my tummy's aching now...
oh fuck...
what shit happened????????????????????????????
I DON WANA GO FOR A MEDICAL CHECK UP!
I DON WANT!!!!!!

-KayLix @ Freaking Out-

Sitting here

i was chatting with a fren of mine juz now..
we were talking bout u know.. "guy's topic"
so there's this fren of mine..
told us that a girl wanted to try having ***
u know wad... with him...
so he said no..
i was like...
Gao~~~!
*in a high pitch*

and my fren said...
cannot leh.. got boyfriend edi..
i was like Gao~~~!
u shud Gao~~~! even more....
but he said..
i still virgin leh... LOL
den i told him 3 reasons why he shud Gao~~~!
aha.
1) cuz its shuang!
2) cuz the perempuan cari keji..
3) ur a guy.. u wont lose anything..

and he was like... think ha sin..
hahaha.. what am i teaching to people..
sounds so unright..
so so so so unright..
not right! hahah.
b4 he left
i said..
"wait for ur good news"

aha.. feel like slapping myself for saying those shit..
asking people to do it but i din do it when im in the same situation
hahaha...

emptiness?

back home
alone or not
i still feel this emptiness
within me.
why do i still feel so?
im doing things that i love
im doing it with my buddies
i got companied all the time.
whenever i want to.
i got all the things i wanted.
i don get enough sleep
at all.
eye bags alot bigger
heavier
darker eye rings.
pimplesss... zzz
im tired.
but i cant seems to fall asleep.
why cant i?
i want to.
is this what we call
miss?
am i really missing you that much?
so much til this extend?
im not superman.
even superman
feels bad sometimes.
even superman misses people

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Joe Brooks - Superman

There are no words, to paint a picture of you girl
Your eyes, those curves, it's like you're from some other world
You walk my way, oh God is so frustrating.

So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
Why do I blow my lines, most every time,
Like I got no chance at all,

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touched my hand,
You feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am

It aint no lie, I have to tell you how I feel,
Each time, I try it gets a little more unreal,
You said my name, Oh God i cant stop shaking

So why do I disappear when you come near,
It makes me feel so small,
If I could read your mind,
Girl would I find, any trace of me at all.

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'cause everytime you touched my hand,
You feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
Cause I'm no superman, I hope you like me as I am

If I could be your superman,
I'd fly you to the stars and back again.
'Cause everytime you touched my hand,
You feel my powers running through your veins.
But I can only write this song,
And tell you that I'm not that strong.
'cause I'm no supermaaaan,
I hope you like me as I am.


-KayLix @ Ain't Superman-

...songs...

When You Look Me In The Eyes

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more, I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

Cause when you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

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i know its too late
too late to say all this
but
ive got to let let out
someday
somehow
somewhere
ive hid all these for weeks
ive deny all these for weeks
ive forgotten these for weeks
and i found out
nothing changes
uve got no idea
how much i misses u
how much i wana put my arms around u
how much i wana be there
whenever ur down
whenever your unhappy
whenever you doubted life
whenever you doubted love
will u ever look me in the eyes again?
will u ever be in my arms again?
will u ever turn back?
will there be another "us"?
coming to think of it
i really did love u
whole heartedly
and you just left me saying
your not good enough
but
i still look forward
i just dont know how
to care and so
in situations like this.?

-KayLix @ Look At Me-

days

its been days since i blogged..
3 days..
getting realli busy with life..
nah... not realli that busy...
usually appear offline..
dono who or what to talk to..
i onlined today..
and a fren of mine asked..
"how's her?"
i answered
"i don know..we broke up.."
she said..
"don make jokes on things like this!"
i hope its a joke as well..
so..
she did said
"if u realli love her, get her back."
all i answered was
"its not that easy"
thats all i could answer or say..
ntg much ntg more..

ok.. now ive settles all my assignments..
ntg much to look forward to until the next sem..
ntg to look forward to at all..
shifting house perhaps?
after that?
i think ill be staying in KL til i start another sem..
dont know where to head to..
just pass the days slowly and slowly..
and..
slowly.. the time passes...
and...
im still feeling the emptiness within me?
or i was just thinking too much?
mayb.. its just me and my creative brain of mine..
hehe..

mayb the thingy called love..
did not disappear?
or mayb.. im just thinking too much again?
takes time to forget someone
who matters so much sometimes..
or.. forgetting some is just impossible..
cause.. they already left a good or a bad mark..
within us? its.. not possible...
at all..

-KayLix @ Empty-

i thought..

this feeling is what i never wanted to have..

i tried to sleep in my fren's house..
so i did fell asleep for awhile..
guess what..
i had a dream immediately after i feel aslp..
i dreamt of things that happened b4..

i dreamt of when i was back in kampar..
and i was sleeping..
and ur back from class..
i saw.. the way u look at me when im sleeping..
ur eyes..
i saw ur eyes..
i smiled..
and i jumped up from my slp..
and continued doing my assignment..

why all these shitty things come to me?
i thought ive already let go..
i thought ive already forgotten..
things like this..
i don want to remember no more..
i don want to remember anything..
i just don want it..
mayb, ive never forgotten a thing bout it..
i don know..
im not interested to know either..
just keeping myself very busy..
to prevent missing u or thinking bout u..
i thought ive successfully do so..

i thought..
i thought..
i thought..

and i hate this feeling..
alot..
"Everytime I Thought That I Had Forgotten About It, The Pictures Slowly Fits Into My Damn Brain Again."


-KayLix @ Not Interested To Know-

swt!

so i was talking to one of my fren..
and suddenly.. both of us were in the same situation..
BORING!
den suddenly she said
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u should hav brought girls back to ur hse hahahaha

im not like that

then u should be like that

i dont want to

hahaha man dun lie la

im faithful

i know u wan t to

and im serious seriously i dont

okaayyy fineee...

i don

then u should hav brought me back to ur hse

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lol.. i was thinking... who am i faithful to..
stupiddd.. haha but who cares.. i don want it..
i dowana be sleeping all around..
i wana keep my name FRESH...
unlike others...
BUSUK... dah...

-KayLix @ What Happened To Girls-

Co-cu Day...

co-cu day..
the final day
for my swimming..
life saving..
water polo-ing classes..
i slept at around 9 the night before...
and i woke up few times..
once is around 12.. den 3 , 5 , and 6...
cant realli fall asleep cuz i slept too long..

so knowing that i will participate
in water polo makes me kinda nervous...
so okay la.. i went for my breakfast ALONE
around 7.30.. supposing there's another dude
accompanying me and support me.. sadly..
he arrived at 11.45.. u know who u are.. lol
so i ate 2 half done egg and a cup of milo..

and i proceed to my arena..
and was freaking surprised that..
there was around 200 people around?
gan jeong weh... so there..
registration for event..
den a fren of mine..
bugged me to join the 50M breaststroke..
he bugged for awhile..
so i joined lor.. dowan sou their hing ma..
joined water polo.. and aquatic games as well..

ok.. first event for me..
50M breast stroke..
i was in the second batch..
dive in.. nicely.. where people cheer for u..
and a few girls said "jia you" to u..
ok.. so i dived in.. swim swim swim..
and i manage to be the first for my batch..
not bad huh.. for a fagger.. haha..

after the event completed...
theres some rest time and there's a dude..
i forgot who.. told me that rank 1 - 10 could get a medal prize..
so of course.. i checked the list..
i was the 6TH!! for the whole 50M event..
its timing la..
not bad lor.. tot go in play play jek...
got prize wor.. hahah..

so i went over to kacau girls at the aquatic games arena..
and the dumb referee blew the damn whistle..
and said " those who join water polo cannot play! "
so one third of us left.. haha..
leaving all there girls there..
"yerrr yerrr yerrr"
cuz all the males in out group joined the water polo..
leaving those girls bhind.. haha

so started our first match for the water polo..
it was a total ownage of 3 - 0..
3 forward player.. me, and another 2 teammate..
scored a goal each.. not bad huh!

so the second game.. was 1- 0..
mid forward scored it.. i did shoot..
but kena keeper's tummy as he jumped up..
so the ends the second game..

THIRD GAME..! it was a 2 - 1 game..
again.. our best player.. scored both the goals..
AND I DID SOME SHAOLIN WATER POLO thing..
i did a nice shot from half of the pool and the ball ENTERED!!
and whistle blewed.. * I FOUL *
kanasai.. I FOUL! FOUL SHOT..!
dam 9 dulan...

4th game was right after the 3rd game..
dah la damn tired.. so i slack only..
stay at the spot and take a rest and wait for balls to come to me..
too bad.. i managed to catch a ball.. but kena tekan by a FAT A-O..
so i passed to another dude..
again.. our best player made the shot of the day!
i think the score's 1 - 0..
i have to agree that our defender was good..
our team work was realli good too..
no "poison eat" kaki..
and after the match DJ keep fuck me say i lazy move..
i was like.. tired la macha.. no stamina la macha..
and he kept lecturing.. =,=
kns.. hahahah

so ends all the event.. and
we won..! by marks..! we owned..!
and.. happi la.. again.. come play paly oni..
get another medal..
comes prize giving ceremony..
oni 1st and 2nd could get the medal..
i was like.. alamak.. false hope leh!!

nvm lor.. couldn't expect more ma..
juz a game.. and there goes to our water polo..
we gold A GOLD MEDAL.!
haha.. and guess whats the name of our team??

its KNS BEST... KNS = KANASAI BEST..!!!
LMAO...

Dj was like.. omfg.. the runner up's name "CROCODILE"
dj : "how can a crocodile lose to a piece of shit in water??"
LOL.. so we made it.. as a team..
we win as a team.. we lose as a team..
and played monkey in the pool with the new mui muis..
hahah..

and i met up with some swimming frens at "fancy mee pan mee"
and theres this realli NOISY girl..
quite entertaining tho.. haha
i guess i wont have much chance to meet them again =P

some of the pics...

my teammate with the "lansi" life saving instructor
KNS BEST RAWWKKKSSS!!!!!


my medal.. altho its a cheaplak thing..
but its worth a souvenier in my life..
good memories huh?
not many people have it huh!!
be proud!!


me camwhoring when im back at home..
notice that my nose and cheeks's PINK!
6 hours under the sun.. what can u say?
and there's people saying its cute..
and there's people said that im tanned!!!

thats all memories =D

-KayLix @ MemoRies-

topic topics

i dont know what to blog about..!
let me think of a topic...
urm.. im blank....
lmao..
browsed the net for 20mins..
yet i don even know what to blog...
lol..
brb..

okay.. its friday the 13th today...
and i read pages of stuff about it..
and i still dun und a shit bout it.. lmao
there's even one A-O blogged and...
said that.. Jesus died on friday...
and there were 13 fellas in the last supper..
lol..
but..
as long as we live right..
whats there to disturb us??
those who do not have peace at heart
will be afraid of all these...
takut balasan la tu...

i mean like...
if u did not do anything so wrong or what..
why believe in superstitions??
even if it happened or what..
it got nothing to do with us right..
they're gonna just pass by or wad..

and its the chinese july..
the un"good" month that many believe in..
hmmmm... but if been out all these days...
believing in nothing except the fact that
i did ntg wrong and i have my God to protect me..
trials may come..
but i know He's faithful to those who are faithful..
right?

hmmm.. i guess im gonna sleep..

"The world's most remote distance, is not life and death,
but it is when I was standing in front of you, yet you do not
know that.....
I love you."

-KayLix @ Dont Get Ur Dick Ripped Of By Jack The Reaper-
LMAO

I want to love you...

its okay if u do not know what love is...
theres still time to learn about it..
don't be so ignorant..
and dont fight all these wonderful feelings..
go and know..
wish to know.. and hope to know...

who treats u with a fruitful heart doesnt matter..
as long as ur happi with them..
who used to love u wad...
whos angel or devil..
as long as ur happi with them..
go on..

seriously, y would ppl wana label u bitch
if those things u did is so normal and ok?
thats not the right way to find love..
certainly..

no point knowing if i loved u..
no point knowing if i still love u
no point knowing whether ill love u forever..
y sorry?? we've already broke up..
and now..
i don think we even talk like a fren do..

dont think that youre not worth anyone's love..
everyone.. no matter what they do..
they worth some love.. at least..
a bit...
u may think that you dont worth it...
mayb mine..
not other's....

yeah.. go out get knocked by a car?
what different can u make?
the very fact that ur gone..
is still here within me..
i love and care.. because i saw u needed it..
and because i wanted to...

u wished ur not in any form of relationship..
not even with me?
i guess so...
ur not even happi when ur with me...
whatever u did...
just did.. happened.. past...
and u have to go on with your live...
u watched P.S i love u rite??
people who loves u..
wants u to get over them..
and continue with ur life...
happily...
and i seriously do...

i myself was confused too..
i know what i want..
but i keep myself away from having that kind of thinking..
the loneliness in me was strong too..
perhaps?? its.. empty??
no matter what i do..
how much i do..
it just worth the same...
as my time with you..,

if u realli love that guy ur trying to hook up with,
y not give love another try...
it wont be the same..
yes.. it might hurt me..
but.. i wish that u will get what you want and need too..

as u said.. the YOU you USED to be..
past tense... its the past...
ur history scares you..
but not now anymore...
ur actions kills you...
but not in future..
cuz ur not gonna do dumb stuff..

i saw what you blogged...
not expecting it...
but somehow i just went to your blog and saw it..

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my personal feeling is..
of cuz.. i feel happier when im with you..
you felt guilty to give me anymre chance..
of u just dont love me anymore..
even if there's a glimpse of hope,
ill go for it..
cuz i aint giving up on love..
especially on you....
time together might be short...
but its filled with wonders...
the dreams we shared...
the visions we discussed..
like before we started...
u said "i don wana pak san tor"
so that goes to me as well..
a girl that i realli love is hard to find..
and despite everything we go thru..
i still love u the way you are..
cuz i know.. a girl like u is impossible to find..
u did respected love...
just not in a proper way..
if not.. y guilty??
y sorry??
the day i lost u is not the day i lost my hope...
its the day that my heart lost a part of it..
half perhaps??? cuz its taken away...
by those bittersweet memories...
i have diff thinking everyday...
1 day i could hate you..
1 day i could love u...
well i guess...
its just the love THINGY..
plsying with my mind...
u said.. i shud cope with studies now first..
i did.. my best for studies..
like i told everyone else...
"what a girlfriend can give.. is not what other ppl could"
thats why i need you...
God Bless...

-KayLix-

Nothing..

nothing nothing nothing nothing....
I say no..
L ike i don't want...
O ther than never..
V ulgarly never ever..
E nclosed to impossiblilities..
Y es, reluctantly..
O ther than hurt..
U tmost bitterness..
J ust emptiness..
E ntrapped in sadness..
A ddled.. love?hatred?
N ever say never?

,do you know that??
*puzzle in Post*
don even fking know y i did that...

-KayLix@puzzled-

speechless

after reading ur blog...
which i din know u will update,
im totally speechless...
TOTALLY SPEECHLESS....
perhaps
i should stay silently where im supposed to be
hide everything again...
not to appear in front of u anymore...
not to mention a thing bout what
had happened...
between u n me...
there's no more hope
no more chance..
no more nothing..

-KayLix@Unhappi*

So..

so what if i love u so much???
u wouldnt even care...
so what if i want you so much???
u wouldnt even want me back...
so what if i think bout u everyday n night???
u wouldnt even do the same...
so what if i misses u so much???
u wont...
so what if i cares for u so much???
u wont care..
so what if i wana see u so much???
u wont even take a glimpse of me...
so what if i wana meet up with u???
ur all busy with the life u had now....
so what???
u wont give a damn....
at all.........
all u said is.....
theres no more love....
and ur in love with someone else.....
thats it....

why would i think of someone
im trying to forget by hating??
why would i miss someone
im trying to delete from my life??
why would i still love someone
who's betrayed me???
why would i still wana see someone
who made me emo-ed for the past 1 month???
why am i being so stupid for someone
like you???

its week 13... im starting to get real free...
and all these starts to haunt me everynight when im alone...
i just don wan alllllll theseeeeeee
I DON WAN IT........
I DON WAN ALL THESE....
I HATE ALL THIS...
I HATE YOU.....
I HATE YOU for leaving me just like nobody's business...
like no one cared....
I HATE YOU for letting IT happen when i was with you...
I HATE YOU for leaving a deep mark and memories in me....
I HATE YOU for leaving all these baggages undone.. unsolved...
left for me alone... to face it.... alone....
to fake like i din even care of it... alone...
like im totally unloved at all... ALONE...

I HATE MYSELF...
I HATE YOU...
I HATE WORLD...
I HATE EVERYTHING...
I HATE LOVE...

hmmmm

hmmm.. back in ipoh for a few days....
then, ntg much happened..
normal ipoh trip ba...
eat ALOT.... yamcha....
snooker........ no clubbing this time dude...
eh.. i went in voodoo for like 15mins??
too noisy... left early...
realli... VOODOOOOOOO SUXXX big time...
just tat.. something's missing...
not realli sure of wht it is...
and oh.. i got drunk in my own house.. lol...
wake movie and drink n drink n dirnk...
fell asleep.. and........ woke up... HEADACHE
dam stupid wehhh....
so im back in KL now....
still......... same....
hmmm.. lack of sumting...
lack of sumting.....
lack.. of sumting...
realli.. sumting...
sumting... sumting....
lack of K powder.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!
lol

-KayLix-

First Love

V1
The last kiss tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell
tomorrow at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

C1
you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone else again
i'll remember to love you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song

V2
the paused time is
about to start moving
there's many things i dont want to forget about
tomorrow at this time
ill be crying
i will probably be thinking of you

C2
you'll always be inside my heart
you will have your own place
i hope i have a place in your heart too
now and forever you are still the one
its still a sad song
until i can sing a new song

C1
you are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone else again
i'll remember to love you taught me how
you are always gonna be the one
it's still a sad song
until i can sing a new song
now and forever


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if the translation form the video is correct....
damn.. i feel damn bad...
ive been listening to this song
without knowing the meaning...
and the meaning is......
DEEP... and... certainly NOT happi...
i don know............
first love......... as the song said....
its... first love....
i feeelllll terrible after listening to this song........
terrible.....
terrible....

-KayLix@Terrible-

No Time....

I don even have a fucking time to blog!!!!
busy busy busy busy!!!
but it ends here now.. bwahahahahaha

and saying of the day
"ALL VEGETARIAN GO AND DIE PLS"

chao hai... all eat vege geh brain... all useless one...
lecturer.. INDIAN... vegetarian.. eat vege oni..
sohaiiii... no fucking point to prove me wrong...
still wana argue back..
whole college tao dah la u..
worst lecturer in our faculty...
even account students pun kenal..
CHAO CIBAI..
still wana question alot...
when quoted back by me, change point terus..
chao hai... bo brain.. bo brain bo brain...

lecturer.. NVM... TEAMMATE also like tat...
vegetarian geh... all sohai.. God gave us meat to eat...
NOT ONLY VEGE!!!!! talk sohai things...
do sohai things... give sohai opinions.. also nvm..
walan.. do small small thing wan lan 7 lek....
1 sentence for u.. FUCK OFFF....

chao hai u 2 cibai...
eat summor sawi la...

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you'll be as dumb as this..!

fuck u la... so like eat VEGE be COW la...
IF U EAT LIKE A COW, U THINK LIKE A COW!
what for wana waste a slot for humans...
there's alot of animals wanting to be HUMANS...
ASSSSSSHOLLLEEEEESSSS!!!!!!

-KayLix-
p/s : missing u dearly...

ngo..

ngo hou gua g lei ah..
=(
dim suen???
lei hou mou ar???
ngo hou seng tung lei king gai a...
but kor ngo mm ji yiu kong mea a...
diu.. dim gai i use cantonese one...
aihhhhhhzzzzzzzz
help me..............
dono what i can do now....
feeling helpless..
afraid of talking to u..
just let it be???
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

wonder

sometimes i realli wonder did i realli crossed ur mind..
i mean like.. walk pass ur mind...
jump pass..
shadow pass by...
erm... my hair pass by..
my eyes pass by..
my smiles pass by...
the way we are pass by..
u said no...
hmmm...
i quite doubted that...
but who cares..
u say no den no lor..
what can i do right???
hahah..
takkan i wana force ppl say..
"oh i think bout u everynight day etc etc etc etc"
quite.. stupid to do that??
lol...................
i had memories....
good and bad memories.....
"bittersweet" memories...
that dark choc produces...
mmmmmm... dark.. chocs....
where are u.....
ive already finished u....
the last one is in my mouth....
mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

-KayLix-

1 , 2 , 3

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10..
a b c d e f g h i j k l m n o p q r s t u v w x y z..
what the hell..
i don know what to blog..
feeling rather emotionless..
lost interest in most of the things i do..
just wana stay at home and sleep and sleep and sleep..
other than assignment.. i don feel like doing anything at all..!
no mood to do anything...
and im going back to ipoh this weeked...
bought 44bucks train tix.. thru n flow..
and im broke!
will i get to see u at least once??
wondering.. lol..
don know if i shud expect or hope?
shouldn't? ok.. i should not..
better not put hopes..
later ill juz fall deeper as i climb higher..
hmmmm.. back to ipoh... what should i do??
question is there...
im broke..!!!

broke... emotionally..
broke... physically...
broke ECONOMICALLY...
damnnnnit maaannnnnn...
broke... PUk GAi arrr...

i came home... log in fb... view ur status... view mine...
den ntg to do with fb other than putting sohai statuses...
why am i doing that?
suffering myself??
well...
its not suffering...
its plain miss...
miss miss miss...
cannot miss one meh??
miss jek mar...
nvr do anything also...
diu..
its been days since we talked??
fri or sat i think... today's tuesday...
as im quite busy myself as well..
noon do assignment..
play some games..
evening try to nap..
night go out..
tilll morning...
den sleep.....
wanted to find someone to sms..
but where got so easy la..
suddenly msg ppl meh...
ppl will think that im a sohaiiiiii!
sohai... i am.. to think bout it.. i quite am...

so i hang out til 6 something in the morning last night...
talked bout most things that happened during my secondary school...
lol..
form 1 = innocent... where theres alot of ppl tries to get u into "brotherhood"
form 2 = still quite blur bout the life i need??
form 3 = i joined a "brotherhood" and involved in a fight? for it? how stupid..
form 4 = erm.. thats where my special days come into... PONTENG.. ponteng.. AND PONTENG!!!
form 5 = 1 word.. PONTENG.. attended 1/2 class a week? LMAO...
lower 6 = thats where i begin to get blurred again... knows no one... lonely sial..
upper 6 = the kancil with a dude and 3 girls.. lol...

college = shit and wonders happened thru-out the whole freaking year here... its tiring.. but i learnt alot.. at least......

hmm.. thinking back.. i wana get back to my form 3/4 life.. sounds so much cooler where i am AT LEAST care free... no worries.. no ntg...
hmmm... life...
life...
life...
life...

-KayLix@Life-

I....

i be a fren to u..
cuz i wanted to be with u..
i be with u..
cuz i wanted to love u even more...
i learn to love..
cuz i wanted to love u even more...
i hold ur hands..
cuz ill nvr find any other hand like urs..
i put my hands around u..
cuz ill nvr feel homelier than others..
i leave a kiss on u..
cuz i know u r the one for me too..
i dono wad to blog anymore..
cuz.. i don know what to expect anymore..
i misses u so much..
yet i cant make a sound...
i don wana let u go..
cuz... i don want to..

i don know...
i realli don know...

-KayLix-

not a lie..

i did not say its a lie anymore....
what i meant.. is... i have to fake a smile upon my face..
so that no one would ever know how sad i am...
i have to put on a mask that's so unreal...
ive nvr blame or what...
so be it...
i just wan u to live happily..
find another guy...
mayb the love from u to him will make u forget bout what happened?
perhaps? i don know if that will work...
again...
i dowana be an obstacle in ur life...
not interested to be 1...
im juzt interested to be ur love...
if thats not possible...
just forget bout it...
just 1 truth...
did not mean the rest's a lie....
i know very well
how i felt and how i react towards things...
just... let me be...
dead or alive....
im just afraid.. that...
ill fall deeper in love with u again..........
wanted to if there's any chance...
if there's no chance...
so be it...

-KayLix@Emo-