not a lie..

i did not say its a lie anymore....
what i meant.. is... i have to fake a smile upon my face..
so that no one would ever know how sad i am...
i have to put on a mask that's so unreal...
ive nvr blame or what...
so be it...
i just wan u to live happily..
find another guy...
mayb the love from u to him will make u forget bout what happened?
perhaps? i don know if that will work...
again...
i dowana be an obstacle in ur life...
not interested to be 1...
im juzt interested to be ur love...
if thats not possible...
just forget bout it...
just 1 truth...
did not mean the rest's a lie....
i know very well
how i felt and how i react towards things...
just... let me be...
dead or alive....
im just afraid.. that...
ill fall deeper in love with u again..........
wanted to if there's any chance...
if there's no chance...
so be it...

-KayLix@Emo-