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i read it somewhere

a split is NOT the end. If you realise that you didn't want it to end like this; tell her you don't want it to end. Retain her in your life... and don't be like me. I threw away some good loves due to my failure to ask my other half to come back... and now I hope that in this current one, I will not make the same mistake.

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差一点你就是我的女人
cha yi dian ni jiu shi wo de nv ren
Just a little more, and you would be my woman
差一些手牵手的完整
cha yi xie shou qian shou de wan zheng
Just a little more, then there will be the completeness of holding hands
却在对的时间错过对的人
que zai dui de shi jian cuo guo dui de ren
But at the right time I missed the right person
抓不住幸福时分
zhua bu zhu xing fu shi fen
Unable to hold onto happiness

遇上了错的人
yu shang le cuo de ren jian
Met the wrong person
渐渐的吻在她无心的嘴唇
jian jian de wen zai ta wu xin de zui chun
The gradual kiss stays on her heartless lips
感觉像一个旅程
gan jue xiang yi ge lv cheng
It felt like a vacation
走完了就分
zou wan le jiu fen
Once it was over, we would part

错过了对的人
cuo guo le dui de ren
Passed over the right person
决定就只在那一秒那一分
jue ding jiu shi za na yi miao na yi fen
Decided at that minute, at that second
爱情的岔口
ai qing de cha kou
At love’s fork in the road
你是我等不到的路人
ni shi wo deng bu dao de lu ren
You are the pedestrian I won’t be able to wait for

差一点你就是我的女人
cha yi dian ni jiu shi wo de nv ren
Just a little more, and you would be my woman
差一些就和你共度一生
cha yi xie jiu shi he ni gong du yi sheng
Just a little more, I would be able to spend the rest of my life with you
因为对的时间对的人
yin wei dui de shi jian dui de ren
Because the right person at the right time
就值得我为你奋不顾身
jiu zhi de wo wei ni fen bu gu shen
Is worth me exerting myself without consideration to my body

差一点你就是我的女人
cha yi dian ni jiu shi wo de nv ren
Just a little more, and you would be my woman
差一些手牵手的完整
cha yi xie shou qian shou de wan zheng
Just a little more, then there will be the completeness of holding hands
却在对的时间错过对的人
que zai dui de shi jian cuo guo dui de ren
But at the right time I missed the right person
抓不住幸福时分
zhua bu zhu xing fu shi fen
Unable to hold onto happiness

错过了对的人
cuo guo le dui de ren
Passing over the right person
决定就只在那一秒那一分
jue ding jiu zhi zai na yi miao na yi miao
Decided at that minute, at that second
如果没缘分
ru guo mei yuan fen
If there is no fate
我也会固执的为你一人
wo ye hui gu zhi de wei ni yi ren
I will still stubbornly be because of you

差一点你就是我的女人
cha yi dian ni jiu shi wo de nv ren
Just a little more, and you would be my woman
差一些就和你共度一生
cha yi xie jiu shi he ni gong du yi sheng
Just a little more, I would be able to spend the rest of my life with you
因为对的时间对的人
yin wei dui de shi jian dui de ren
Because the right person at the right time
就值得我为你奋不顾身
jiu zhi de wo wei ni fen bu gu shen
Is worth me exerting myself without consideration to my body

差一点你就是我的女人
cha yi dian ni jiu shi wo de nv ren
Just a little more, and you would be my woman
差一些手牵手的完整
cha yi xie shou qian shou de wan zheng
Just a little more, then there will be the completeness of holding hands
却在对的时间错过对的人
que zai dui de shi jian cuo guo dui de ren
But at the right time I missed the right person
抓不住幸福时分
zhua bu zhu xing fu shi fen
Unable to hold onto happiness

with translation and pinyin..

cuz i don realli und all of the words he sang...

so i googled it..

thats what google are for XD

-KayLix @ Songs-

Drunk?

ok good..
im partially drunk..
and what im gonna blog's gonna b sensitive..
if u cant tahan..
just leave the blog..
its not a emo post..
JUST A DUMB POST BY A DUMB GUY..
expressing his feelings..



















oh yeah..
i still misses you..
and i don know if u do..
its not that..
i cant get other girls outside or..
i cant just let go of u..
perhaps..
i just felt that ur the one..
and i want to hold on to it..
i dont want to let go..

i dont want to...
for this time,
im not just gonna give up liek this...
i shouldnt be calling uthis,
but baby,
feel's not everything,
love's not everything..
is this..
faith to continue holding on..
and continue hoping..

i know..
what i dreamt and what i hope..
might not be the thing that will happen.
but no harm giving another try..
u dont know how much i misses you..
perhaps.. u know and u dont..
i don know anything bout u..
perhaps..
u might have feelings for other already..
i don know..

i just wish that i could know a lil something bout u...
i don even dare to msn or fb u..
i don know what i can do..
this loneliness..
cant be filled by jsut any others..
and this is true..
and what ur hoping and waiting for..
might not be me..
and im just blogging to realli tell what i felt..

i miss every moment that we've been thru..
i miss u..
i miss the way we used to be..
i miss..
my promising life partner that
doesnt realli work...
perhaps.. u just don feel all this anymore..
mayb to u,
now im just a passer by..
so randomly walked and get passed u..
so easily to be forgotten..
mayb im even forgotten..
so easily that..
no words could comprehend..

will it be dumb to wait for u til u come here in KL?
WIL IT?


-KayLix @ ImWaiting-

ok this is not an emo post..!

ok.. im not being emo now here ok!
its just that..
something's missing..
missing someone?
could it be?
dont know!
if it happens to be,
ntg could be helped den..
as i wont realli start talking..
or i wont suddenly find and talk..

kesian u tao..
put on a monkey show
to show totally the opposite of what ur feeling.
but so far so good..
coping up with it..

so many things to confess..
so many things to share..
so many truths to be reveal..
but who cares?
no one does..
and again..
im not EMO-ing wokey?
this feeling is much better than being emo.. XD

most probably u dah berpunya or so so
as i din go and stalk u..
din even asked about u..
let it be bah..
if the way u r now ur much more happier with it..
i din stalk any profiles..
and i just stalk my own phone..

and i search for things in my phone,
there's still some pics that we're stil in kl..
heheh.. i tot ive deleted all pics..
but left a few..
with the couple shirt, fullhouse, lorenzo,
and the event u missed out when
nel's tayar get stolen..

bet that's all that is left inside..
wanted to delete...
but hell.. i see it every night b4 bed..
at least ill have a lil lil smile..
AND IM NOT BEING EMO OR WHAT SHIT here ok?
its just...
this sweet feelings. still lingers around..
around me especially.
and.. i miss every single moment of it..
hmmm...
life.. couldnt get enough of it..

so i gotta go.. and try sleeeping..
needa wake up at 6.30 to climb mountains..
and nights frens..
nights world..
nights whatever it is!

-KayLix @ SweetHoneyBee-

Stars And Moons

ntg specific to blog about..
seems like i lost interest in doing things that i wanted to do..
not to say lost interest..
is just that im alwayz tired..
alwiz alwiz tired..
God knows why.. and whats happening inside my body..
Damnnnnnnnnnnnnn..
gonna be returning to kl soon..
in less den a week's time...
den starts my 5th sem..
and wow... time seriously FLIES!!!!!

its been a year and 4 months im in KL
and yet... what happened thru-out this 1 year..
is still fresh in my mind..
how i got my new friends..
how i got things happened..
heheh..
yeah.. mayb..
im quite good in remembering things..
that i tot i couldnt rmb..
passive memories..
loving it.. and enjoying every single moment of it..

-KayLix @ I Don't Not I Can't-

i am...

i am not even a reflection..
i am so fake..
so unreal..
so untruthful..
so many untold feelings..
so many fake actions..
so many things..
that is real..
that i did not voice out =)

-kayLix@FAke-

Prayers And Wishes..

well..
theres alot of people..
even myself.. do have prayers..
and wishes..
well the thing is....

i heard it somewhere in a movie..
i forgot what the movie is..

it says..
"if u pray for happiness, will happiness just appears infront of u?"
"or ur given a chance to be happi and learn how to be happi?"

because we humans..
are.. seriously not good at appreciating things..
and making things worst..
we take almost everything for granted...
except for the things that we earned for it..
that we hardly earned for it..

well.. most of us failed to appreciate.
especially our loved ones..
and example..
i failed...

sometimes.. its beyond words where i could love somebody..
perhaps..
im just not good at expressing it yet...
instead.. i express it the wrong way..
which can be interpreted wrongly...
i may not have enough patience or whaeva it is needed..

but as i pray for patience,
i pondered, does it realli exist?
as i was thinking over and over and over again,

i found out that..
there were many times i were given the chance to be patience,
but i did not do it in the correct way...
knowing this, i know that i must take the first step..
towards wad i reali what..
i cant eeven handle my own self..
in future, how can i even take care of someone else?
like my gf my wife etc..

and.. i did prayed for patience and a true love..
and i know that i were given a chance to be patience..
but true love..
i think...
i was given a chance too.. to be in a true love..
just that.. both party screwed up..

but realli to think about it,
should i just give up on it..
without another try???
ya larrr..
what to do ..
im a thinker..
and im not realli sad over it..
and actually just avoiding it..

I AM A THINKER...
i think alot!
its just a way of me..
i thinks about everything..
every single thing around me..


oh.. i just went out of topic.. LOL

just.. nvm............

-KayLix @ Hmmm-

KL..

one thing for sure..
i hate KL when sem's over..
alone here with nothing to do..
but to face the 4 walls in my room..
and i hate to be alone..
feels like..
the whole world had just abandoned
and ignored me..

unwanted memories haunt me
when im alone..
sitting there.. doing ntg..
sick of doing anything..
and there,
shitty feeling comes..

yeah..
i don know why..
i tried my best to just ignore?
and not to rmb anything?
and yet.
its here..
bugging my lonely mind..

mayb sis's right
"oni u urself will suffer n she's living a fucking good life"
y am i being dumb?
mayb im the dumb one here..
but.. i..
i have nothing more to say nor
to blog about..
this sucks..

i once said..
i will let go..
i don even want to see u..
but i bumped into u..
when i doesnt wana see u the most

i keep telling myself that..
no matter what i do or
what i hope for..
it wouldnt change a thing..
not a thing..
so.. i go around..
doing things..
that i thought could at least..
take this soul-less mind away
for a moment..
just a moment..

ive gt to admit..
that there's not 1 moment..
that i did not miss u..
that i did not think about u..
but still..
all these hopeless thoughts..
have to be removed..
completely..

It Took Years To Forget Bout Someone
I Don't Know Even Know Why I Love..
How Long Will It Take For Some I Know
Why I Love?

- KayLix @ The Idiot Guy -

Ipoh? KL?

hmmmm... its 3.17am now...
i cant seems to fall asleep..
not anytime now i guess..
and im wondering why...
feeling so heavy to leave ipoh
to go back to kl....

hmmm..
as tho its like im leaving for the very very
FIRST TIME...
mayb i had back here in ipoh...
and going back there...
i will be all alone in my own room..
just sitting in front of this square box whole day long..

and...
i realli do believe the sentence
"the world is damn small"
i was at my fren's bro's son's 1month bday..
i don even know why she invited me there too..
lol.. but nvm..
as i was eating, suddenly the host said
"ui, ur ex stock"
at first i was like.. diu.. she gao siu one lor...

den everyone looked there..
i turned my head also la...
ternampak pulak..
was quite surprised tho..
indeed the world's damn damn small..!

neway..
i went to club last nite..
with some of the buddies and some unknowns..
opened few buckets of beer..
which i did not realli contribute..
so i minum ajer..
and i kena dui lam.. LOL..
another guy keep catching me back...
saying "y u kao my lui/sis?"
i don realli rmb..
and he keep stuff beers into my mouth..
drink lor..
suddenly i saw one like cocktail like tat one..
i tot wana dui geh..
see see.. later on got another tower one..
i ran away..LOL
tak nak kena kuat geh benda..
as i was quite drunk and
i don wana go home like a piece of jerk..
escape lor...

so the night went on... and..
went home..
VOMIT...
try to sleep..
VOMIT..
pening like fark weh...
vomit isnot anything..
VOMIT GAS..
sunfoo lan dou....
so i give up drinking for the moment..

still..
this realli heavy feeling subsides in me..
which i don realli know why..
i guess ill be missing ipoh and...
my parents especially..
*i have soup almost everyday*
thanks MOM!
weeeeeee~
mom's soup the best.. no1 can fite i tel u..
and then my frens...
had some great time with them..

im gonna realli be alone in KL..
as my oni person i can find is having exam..
guess i wont be bothering him..
so.. i have to go thru all these alone..
realli alone.. =(

"Perhaps being selfish aint that bad. at least you dont need to care bout anyone. Just Ourselves."

-KayLix @ Heavy-

mirror

before u proceed,
if u think that im
pathetic,
attention seeking,
idiotic,
or whatsoever
u can name it,
just..
FUCKING LEAVE THIS BLOG..
i ain't begging anyone to read...
so if u think that im at
least even pathetic,
JUST FUCK OFF...
i blog to express whatever shit i go thru..
not for u to judge whoever i am...











sometimes,
life is like...
getting a newly bought toy..
u get realli realli happi and excited for what's
inside and..
ur waiting for the stunts that the toy can do..
*ur easily amazed and surprised*
guess what...
u'll play with it daily rite...

den time passes...
and yeah...
u get bored of that new toy...
fyi: first day = new... second day = old liao.. 2days old liao marh. haha
u ma luen luen throw away ur toy lor...
here buang there buang..
then the damn toy.. head come off.
dick come off..
what shit also come off..

eventually.. it will end up in a RUBBISH bin
ngam mou?

but this don't realli apply to me..
ok let's start from the morning..
i wake up.. feeling like P.Diddy...
Nah... just some crap...
i wake up...
follow parents for lunch...
i mean the time ill wake up is..
around 2?
surely have a cup of coffee..
cuz im in ipoh..
and there's time where i need some..
thing...
u know..
some thing...
so i take coffeee as the sub..

and guess what... i reach home..
continue sleeping..
i din know i can sleep after coffee..
well.. nvm.. sleep til its time to dinner...
wake up, dinner........
den wait for phone calls..
or make some phone calls..
to get my ass off the house..
return home.. bath..
online.. blog... and.. sleep..

since im back,
this is my life..
predictable, unexcited..
and.. its a dull dull life..
and .. i hate dull life!

looking at the mirror..
i cant really see who i am..
im even worst tempered now..
doing things that im not supposed to..
i was like...
what the helll......
hmmmm.. pale looking dude..
with no sparks in the eyes blogging here...
trying his best to sleep...
nights

-KayLix @ WhoAmI-

forgotten

ive got a nice topic to blog about few days ago..
when i just reached ipoh..
but i forgot what i wanted to blog about..
i just remembered that its a nice topic..
not a emo or shooting topic..
but its just a lesson???

i shall rest the whole day at home tomolo..
thinking wad was that topic about..
i cant and wont go out i think..
been out since i came back and..
i came back like... quite late...
parents nag lor..
if im in KL.. dun come back also nvm.. hahah
fact is.. IM NOT... but
i have aircond here in ipoh.. much better XD

-KayLix @ MemoryLost-

long long story..

its been months since my broke up..
and i still couldnt realli get over it..
what am i realli doing..
is nothing.. passing daily lives...
getting realli busy with whatever that may come..
work myself out..
and still.. i couldnt realli let go..

and there's frens who was like
"eh after all she did to u, u still wan hold on meh?"
well..
its not that simple..
i do love and cherish her so much..
i love her? why?

firstly, shes the one who supports me
whenever and whenever i needed it..
she alwiz encourages..
rarely discourages..

2nd, i feel realli comfortable being with her..
as if.. that shes already a part of me for a long time
i do not fake anything nor attitude when im with her..
she might not like this.. but.. i like the way it feels..
so so so at home..

3rd, i "thought" we could last..
thought oni okay.. din made it thou..
but at least.. iw anted it to last..
theres a lot more..
but my mind's not reminding any of them for the moment..

but that's not what she had been thinking bout...
she's just thinking bout
"oh i don get enuf love~ lets fuck another guy tonight"
yeah.. thats it..
and what she said? im not good nuff for u etc etc..
thats what i get man..
not angry or sad now.. just.. hmmm..
blank?

and u know wad.. she said..
"its not that i don wana give another chance to u or
move on with u"
"its just that i have a lesson to learn~"
i was like.. huh? wad lesson?
wad ur gonna do to learn it??
get STD ?

BUT

i msged her one fine day..
and told her that i wanted to let go and forget bout it all
and i thanked her for being a part of my life..
for a few times.. =/

why do i wana say such things?
cari pasal?
no.. i believe when i tell her these..
i must prove to myself that..
i will do whatever i said..
am i being to confusing?
sometimes, i wanted to her..
but now.. i say i wana give up and all shit.
but i cant bear to holdmyself in this miserable emotional life..
it cant go on..
in fact.. its just so retarded to hope on to someone
who doesnt even wana take a lloook at u..
someone who doesnt even wana give a damn..
stupid right? if feelings can be controlled this easily,
there would be a perfect world
conclusion, i couldnt control it as well..

i Forget bout u...
cuz u've seems to have forgotten bout me..
i Let go..
cuz u already did that long ago..
i Leave..
cuz u've already left me.. all alone facing all this shits..
i'll Ignore..
cuz u did the same..

no point.. forcing myself..
putting myself in a situation where.. i will work myself up..
whatever she does... dont matter anymore..
ill try not to...
and what for.. i have sleepless nights...
oni her? huh. pathetic huh?

and who does she think she is?
going around breaking hearts...
shes gonna get a cold..

-KayLix@MM Gum Yuen-

step up 3D

hmmm..
overall.. i would rate it 4/5
and for the finale of the show,
i would rate it 4.8/5...
all the best parts came out 20mins
before the show ends....
and there's lessons of life in the movie too..
love it.. and its NOT a waste to WATCH IT...
so..

WATCH IT..
EXPERIENCE IT..
LOVE IT..
FEEL IT..