Prayers And Wishes..

well..
theres alot of people..
even myself.. do have prayers..
and wishes..
well the thing is....

i heard it somewhere in a movie..
i forgot what the movie is..

it says..
"if u pray for happiness, will happiness just appears infront of u?"
"or ur given a chance to be happi and learn how to be happi?"

because we humans..
are.. seriously not good at appreciating things..
and making things worst..
we take almost everything for granted...
except for the things that we earned for it..
that we hardly earned for it..

well.. most of us failed to appreciate.
especially our loved ones..
and example..
i failed...

sometimes.. its beyond words where i could love somebody..
perhaps..
im just not good at expressing it yet...
instead.. i express it the wrong way..
which can be interpreted wrongly...
i may not have enough patience or whaeva it is needed..

but as i pray for patience,
i pondered, does it realli exist?
as i was thinking over and over and over again,

i found out that..
there were many times i were given the chance to be patience,
but i did not do it in the correct way...
knowing this, i know that i must take the first step..
towards wad i reali what..
i cant eeven handle my own self..
in future, how can i even take care of someone else?
like my gf my wife etc..

and.. i did prayed for patience and a true love..
and i know that i were given a chance to be patience..
but true love..
i think...
i was given a chance too.. to be in a true love..
just that.. both party screwed up..

but realli to think about it,
should i just give up on it..
without another try???
ya larrr..
what to do ..
im a thinker..
and im not realli sad over it..
and actually just avoiding it..

I AM A THINKER...
i think alot!
its just a way of me..
i thinks about everything..
every single thing around me..


oh.. i just went out of topic.. LOL

just.. nvm............

-KayLix @ Hmmm-